oops, totally forgot one
black and pure white checkered velcro Vans - pretty nice as well, sort of hurts my ankles, and defies hurts my bunions.. (death)

let me seeeeee;
black and white checkered Vans - original and also my favourite, has a rip in the canvas, must preserve
black with purple accents DC's - waaaay too big for my feet, big and clunky, not the greatest for movement/walking
black with white polkadots Vans - in perfect wearing condition, minus the fact no human would ever want to have their nose within 2 meters from it
green and brown Vans - pretty nice, good condition, hurts my big toe because they are too small
rainbow Keds - fucking sexy shoes, sole decided to seperate itself from the canvas
green mary j' Converse - totally uncomfy for my feet, last resort shoes, can't wear to school due to fear of administration rofl
other flimsy flats all give meE sensitive feel blisters

I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THHHHAT, i shall have to go to winners, and find new vans!

ahh this laptop is burning my legs and making me sweat
i love being nude woooo nudist revolution!
revolution reEVOLution that's love backwards bitch
i really hope my lip heals and with no scars to prevail
i wish i woke up and became male model beautiful

ROOOOOFL
yester night was fucking insane, fuck the god damn authority.
they don't know fucking shit,
anyways, so the night went down a different path than had planned,
we didn't end up going to botb because people are ignorant and reeeeetarted
(so it's NOT just my stupid idotic school)
it was a fucking shame i didn't even get to see ANYBODY, no joanna, no orpah, no joy, no.. anybody
the night ended up being lots of fun anyways, but the original would have been very good too.

i love my lovelies (L)

we made a deal, if she stopped hookin', i'd stop shootin' people
how romantic!
kay attention, the wine grape tree vine is slowly growing, more stealing of them and eating them yummmmy
my fucking keds have a fucking hole/rip in the back, now i can't wear them anymore, must preserve
i'll have to start wearing my damn dc's, ooor i can just ask my mom to wash my other black and white vans, i think i'll do that, it'll be like new shoes.. although i totally don't stand for washing vans, it like.. washes away the origiNAL personality of them, poop
MUST GO SHOE SHOPPING NOW, but only on sales shoes, and hunting through shoes in winners reofl

so you were lying! nooo, i was bluffing!
i mean, i could have been typing up a project, but whatever, today was such a beautiful day, not a day to be stuck in writer's craft on the THIRD floor, in the blistering hot heat
the rofl rofl clubhouse such a nice placy to hangout and such
i said such twice in the line above, i don't think i like that
mel gibson is on the tellevision, omfg cum art

o em f g
did facebook take away the wall-to-wall.. or is it just me rofl

I'M HAPPY AND HYPER
two of the best h words, i'm sure
k so my shoulders hurt so much, so i won't type a lot
uuuhhhhh two days of not smoking and i feelbetter alreasy, it seems almost too good to be true, but who the fucks gives a shit
p.s. i'm bring mika back, because it's almost summer, and WE ALL FEEL THE LOOOOOOOOOVE

for shur maybe for shur not, for shur eh, for shur BOMB
so fuck me in the backseat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ONE MORE THING.
CODEINE CODEINE CODEINE
that was the drug of choice today, rofl
lets snort some shit bb

a) i use this far too much rofl
b) there needs to be more people i talk to on msn so i don't keep doing this
c) iit's SOOOOO hot outside and yet SOOOO fucking cold inside my house
DEEEEE) i'm cool, and my boobs look so fantastical in this pink.. damn what are these things called again, oooooh right, TANK TOPS what a weird word

O YAH DID I SAIIIII
THE B.O. OF THAT FAT LADY AT DRUMCIRCLE WAS SO CLOSE
DAMN BEING SHORT AND HAVING MY FACE ALMOST DIRECTLY WHERE HER ARMPIT DURING THE RAISED ARM OF EXCITEMENT ROFL ROFL ROFL
ROFL

AWWW LOOK AT THE BABY
don't say that, you'll want one! you don't want one of those, do you?!
rofl rofl royal york station delissio people were giving away free pizza, all i could think about was how funny and happy i would be if that happened to me and i had MADDD munchies, i'd eat it on the bus frozen hahahahaha I'D COOK IT IN THE SUN
it was a beautiful day outside, didn't go to school again, though i talked to shanna and she's the nicest teacher ever ever ever in the world, i love her, and i hope her life brings her to amazing places.
HEY HAY HAIII GUESS WHAT, alex refilled your zippo for me for you! wooo i love it shh
system of a down and msi are my favourite, leah says so

p.s. day two to i quit smoking kthanks, all i did was hang out at the park and NOT smoke, it's defies not as fun.. but it was okay.

it's my life and it's now or ever
i just want to live forever
na na na na na bon jovi
i don't see it getting better, it has only gotten worse
i would go for a splee now more than ever
even a god damn cigarette would do
I'LL SUCK YOUR COCK
maybe i'll just be a hooker, that'd be so much fun
AIDS WOOOOOOOOOOO

so i did end up going to drumcircle, it was fun i guess
it's not even really that hard to say no to weed, it's just the feeling that's being passed by er
yeah i don't know, life shall be bland and bleek and b-sad because woah woah woah don't want to type it and get all sentimental and have it written in stone, WRITTEN ON THE DAMN WIIIFIIII

ugh i feel so sick

two seconds ago, i smiled at myself
i haven't done that for so long, i forgot how much i liked looking into a mirror, and finding a genuine smile
(L)

today is the athletic banquet, it's too bad i decided not to go..
today is the second drumcircle, it's too bad i decided not to go..

today is the first day i've decided to not smoke weed, as much as i do so in my life right now, it's probally the best thing i'll ever have the guts to decide on.
props to you diana shen, props.

WOOOOOOOOO DAY ONE TOWARDS JOURNEY TO SANITY

HOLY SHIT
I JUST REALIZED I HAD THE TRIPPIEST DREAM EVER
it felt so real that i thought it had actually happened..
until i went on facebook and saw her picture, and then it all came rushing back
thw pregnancy, the suspected cheating, the new found connection, those bikes, omfg
what was that even about holu fuck me side ways
was there magic involved?! I THINK THERE MIGHT HAVE BEEN
that room with all those people, the race with my mother and that man holding my mind
running in my dc shoes because i thought i was going to church
ALL THOSE THINGS IN THAT BASEMENT WITH DAVID
omfg weirest dream ever, reaklly

har har didn't go to school again, laaaaaameeeeee]
NO DIANA THERE IS NO ANSWER FOR YOU
NOTHING CAN HELP YOU
YOU ARE ACHEIVING YOUR POTENTIONAL ALREADY
IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT YOU'RE KILLING YOURSELF DOING SO
IT DOESN'T MATTER
MEDS WON'T HELP
YOU ARN'T CRAZY, TRUST ME, I WORK WITH CRAAAAAZY PEOPLE

so what are you gunna do?
the only thing i can (death)

i can't breathe from my left nostril, it's very humid outside, and i have two cold sores.
no kisses, and waterfalls for sharing, such a god damn bitch!
ew plz! nobody wants to see that BUT AW HE JUST WANTS TO HUG HER
finch and emma aw aw

almost lost it again! are shoulders supposed to pop out like that..? okeeeey i don't give a fuck about immigration and it's effects on the world, env't govn't uhhhhhhhhhhh wish i was outside, alone

now i dont no wut 2 do

WOOO I'M A BITCH!

youbreakmyheartwitheveryinchingwish
aflintinreaction,apainnomancanbear
aglimmerofhope..perhaps
crushedbythefootofiloveyou'tillforeverandmore
lies,damnliesandstatistics
iguessthat'sallweweremadetobe

friday may 30th
- english essay

monday june 2nd
A - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXx
E - XXXXXXXXXXxxXXX

tuesday june 3rd
B - math exam pt. 1
F - make your own religion

wednesday june 4th
C - m. night shyamalan
G - immigration & environmental effects

thursday june 5th
D - SPAREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
H - SPAREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
______________________

thursday june 12th
B - math exam pt. 2

[ mindmap ]

I THINK

YA YA YA YA YA i love shoes, and when they are free and cute and from a billion years ago, it makes it even better!

alright, i feel a bit more sane..

my mother found my orange lighter, thank GOD! now all i need is the black one and halloweeeeeen shall light up once again

i need you, I NEED YOU, more than anyone, darlin'

personal day off today, woo losing my religion
today was also my handsplint appointment, but noo nobody reminded me, so now i have to wait until fucking thursday so i can get this stupid splint off, stupid mother fuckers

i found my brown bra and Snuffles..

NOW I FICKEN CAN'T FIND MY CARMAX
I'M LOSING ALL MY MARBLES

i should get angel wings -there-

SOMEBODY STOLE MY FUCKING LIGHTER
WHEN I FIND OUT WHO
I'M GOING OT KILL THEM
I'M LOSING MY MIND TRYING TO FIND IT

my head, it hurts, a big throbbing pain.
my heart, it beats, always too weak.
my hand, it smells, can't get it clean.
my feet, they walk, find my way home.
my life, it flys.. into a hermit hen? [ TOTALLY OUT OF CONTROL ]

i could feel my heartbeat in my foot, the top part.. love? yesterday i peeled an orange with one hand, and threw the outside parts into my bag, pretty hobo.
sometimes i feel like this is all a dream, and maybe i'll just wake up one day, and have this perfectly awesome life where everything just worked out. too bad i'm just tricking myself out of real life, la la real life it all sucks. only make beeeelieve is (L)

what do you want first, bad news, or bad news?
your pick.
OH WAIT, EITHER WAY IT SUCKS HAR HAR

damn, i was going to talk about something, oh right.
MY STONER DAY CONSISTED OF, smoking the resin in charlie's pipe and burning my lip since it was a metal one, i guess that wasn't such a good idea, talking to malone about permafrication.
rofl lily leemers said that we should hold hands and just never let go because we're both so fucked for life, i wouldn't agree, but sure..
UH PHYCHIATRIST
you know i love you right?

YOUR DICK GOT THE HIV
YOUR DICK WENT STRAIGHT TO DVDDDDDD

fuck no, i ain't perma-fried! you just only always see me when i'm high, because really, i am high most of the time! just had to clear that up, kthanks. i love freezies yes i do, i love to yogo and relax, this month's wednesday sessions are so fucking bombdiggity, i get to do nothing for first period, maybe play frogger, plaint during second period, smoke weed during lunch, yoga it up during third, and meditate/relax during forth! WOOO IT'S AN AWESOME LIFE, but tomorrow will be bad, i'm actually just a lot screwed for school.

MACBETH 2006; NOW PLAYING





oh shit, to tell you the truth, i forgot even why i was searching for this..

YEAH BITCH I HAVE A TOLERANCE WHATCHA GUNNA DO ABOUT IT.
hi, i really felt that we connected on a higher level tonight, here's my number, hit me up!

Recipe for; the Best Night Ever

1 seemingly boring saturday
1 amazingly coincidental meeting of,
2 deliciously funny boys; darien's and raymond's produce the best outcomes
1 rediculously persistant fiend (secret ingredient)
1-2 anxiety kids; iain's really spice things up
1-2 heavily set drums
1 beautifully strung guitar
1 differently dressed small asian
1 sweetheart of a russian
1-2 sketchy weed-checks off of random kids, moolah included
1-2 successfully weed-checks
1 HIGH PARK
and 4-5 funny drunk italian/mexican men; beer!*

* for added lawls; commical lyrics, exposed fat bellies, peeing behind trees and asking for help from the anal raper [?], nights leading into mother's day, dew in grass fields, awesome stoners in general, AND WHATEVER ELLLLLSE (L)

yo shit! i just realized i had a very romantic dream last night, with the whole, passing out thing. i'm sure it was longer than i remember, but what i do remember, was quite the amazing memory.
it started off with me and sheep wondering around, in a weird sort of suburbia place, looking for a small alley way that led into what we were hoping for, would be an amazing sight. i'm assuming my dream thoughts were based on the fact that that night we were all hanging out and looking for that cool area of a nook, go iain. so me and sheep are looking looking looking, and them BAM it's right there, we go down the long narrow pathway, seemed like forever long, and when we got to the end, there were sort of.. geometric shapes, like the ones at highpark, and we went into a little corner, and the view was SPECTAQULAR no jokes. i don't even know what it was really, but, to make it frank, uuuh it was like, the nightsky view of a city's skyline, but fuck it wasn't like any normal skyline, it was the the whole world's. it stretched on forever, like when you go to the, damnit the word has slipped my mind, the movies when it goes all around you like a dome. yeah those! right right, so it was all surounding us, and i guess the narrow pathway was behind us, and omg it was truely the best dream i've ever had, just because of that very sight. anyways, the weird thing was that there were people beside us, and rofl it was ACTUAL people i knew, aka apple and his girlfriend, weird right? but yeah, then i woke up.

and it was back to shitty mcshitshit reality.

today was such an awesome adventure, geewillicks! oh right, so i guess i didn't do anything during school, but that's very normal with the life styll i thrive on, rofl rofl wtf am i talking about i'm just jabbering, i've motivated myself to use this at least once a day, and just ramble on about anything. today i smoke a lot, starting to build a tolerance yaknows YAK YAK YAK uh adventuring around is very fun, i like to eat chicken and pet my friend iain

i forgot to title the last one

THE BONGO SONG; NOW PLAYING i'm down

i'll suck your dick? bitch please. tell me you don't love msi, like i wouldn't even be able to survive if there wasn't msi.. and weed of courseizzle! uuuuhh let's review some math now; blueberry blast blunt + old sweaty ass feet = what my gross hand smells like! got side tracked, talking to people of the past seems to distant and at the same time, so comforting. stoners are the most friendly people, that's for shurz. WOULD YOU LIKE TO PUR CHASZ ME A GUN? omfg i can't even sztand it, this music is orgasmic, rule number one: don't stain the couch. yo guy people keep stealing our chair, bft for lifeees

reeeeeeeeedo

yo homeskillet that postular wasn't even about being a 'smoke weed everyday' (8) stoner, in fact it had no stories at all! we dragged a couch to the park, so we have a nice place to sit now, it's pretty awesome. andrew and that other kid stole it today, but they sort of shared the cronja so it's cool i guess. i love the stoner crew we've put together, it'll be a legacy that nobody else will be able to hold up.. i think. who will be the new chris stocks next year?! i wanna see you trip, i wanna see you trip, i'll trick you, and then

noseular

my hand smells really bad, but i can't stop smelling it! don't you hate those sorts of situations, i know i do! i know i can be what i wanna be, if i work hard at it, i'll be where i wanna be! from 927 to 1259 i could prob go into some sort of poem after that line, that'd be nice, i think so. hmm i must go to the washroom to make peepee, and then i'd go and get some grub. BEST FRIENDS FOREVER = bff, BLUNT FORCE TRAUMA = bft! rofl rofl big fat copter lots of funny moments, he loves to spoil them(L) i wonder if he'll read this, most likely, i'd assume so, maybe, definitely, on the contrary you crazy canary! love birds love birds they love to love each other, soul mate soul mates, i love baby german shepards, but dal ma tions!!